And back it comes

Love & Lord O thy glory tunes
It comes back to me now
Like a slow poison

Was I like that when my mother was my world
And when my memory didn't belong to me
Is it just a game or a strange mirror of being

Now it's time when I wait
And I wait for it to come
The restlessness of my emptiness
when shall dance with lonliness

When you love..

The love I want
On face you wear
Looking eyes not me
Still love it is

The smile the spark
And desire to serve
Does it even matter
Not me not me

Love you I do
Happy you be happy
Weak jealous I am
And I will suffer

Do you have it?

The things we won't do for love
I'd climb a mountain if I had to
Risk my life so I could have you
You, you, you

What to do.. its true.
Only fools fall in love
And everybody thinks
That I'm the fool
But they don't get
Any love from you.

A cry

And I am down in a fearful dream
As she leaves me behind in her dreamy pursuit
A selfish self, thus, cries amidst chaotic leisure
As a storm seems to promise ire

Not distance but the thoughts kill
The merger of me with her lovely self
As she will grow right, and I'll move left
Painting a gap of silent moans

Let us witness the demise
Of this changing eternal time

The sting of waiting

It falls along the curves wiping the pain
The restlessness forgets what exists
A drop of tear is the gate I chose
To enter pain, and leave the fear
Not much I demand, but a chain of words
Of clarity and demand even if its an illusion

I wait. I can't I know
Words I need. I need it I know
I feel it - a bond of trust
As each moment dies without the air

Sacrifice

Feeding souls for souls
As the love becomes violent on beloved
The nature of love. Ah! Beastly, isn't it?
I love you, and I love you
I kill you for the sake of love

Let me die. Let me cry
Let me die once again
I feel the pain is more
As I am being fed to love


I am hurt. I am hurt.
 Not this way. No. Not this way.
I deserve more...

My attachment

A lonely feast

It's the time, and I am far
Far far away, deep into an unknown feast
No guests but my dreams;it's love. I feel weak
It's a celebration. Happy Birthday. Let me wish you
Muah!. Is it dry? Desire may be. The heart's not.
I am attached. No why, no how. I am attached

Let's pray for the sake of love
Let's die even if there's no luck.


Some relationships are strange. Very strange.

If you could...

There is some pain;it's a desire, burning
Nor the hands, and the smile; without you?
Listen! I wish to say. Can't you read my mind?
I am broken. It's simply love, right? Let me say it
No reality, all dream. Ok. Sad I am, isn't it?
If you could listen, I call you. I call you

Thoughtlessness

It's time now...I've a lot of time...time to think and time to relax.

Time to say and time to reflect

When I'll be old, when I'll be close
To the state which we call as death
Bring the tears of  miseries of moments
I lived in vain,and in suffering and pain

Let alone be I who will choose the song
Where I'll dance and I hope, I will.

LoveS?

Can I dissect Love
Into names and pieces
Should I punch the lines
On the infinite feeling

A lover, a friend
Oh my son, and someone strange
All the same, it's a play of time
And of emotions, and of the little brain?

Let's rise, let's embrace
Not pieces, and in the total grace

Mercy!

It's tears again

Life slips like the tears do off the cheeks
When change slaps soft to wake me up
What can you control is what she asks
How long shall you dream is what she challenges

It's pain what I feel here in me
It's real, the tears which I shed here
It seems it's over, it feels nothing but sad
I want to face it, but I am too weak to be free

O Life! Have mercy on this tired soul
Show me in real the faces of this world
Not in steps, I beg, but at once and for all
Allow me to talk to you and move myself

I'll pray

Retracing...

I think of you when I talked to you
I pray to you. O! You're in trouble
I can't walk to you. I can't feel you
I want to help you. Can I is what I ask you
You're the Seed and you should find yours
I pray for myself to you; and I pray for you too

Long time after Love pushes me to Love
Let me Love you and let me Love you.



Trouble of the loving ones and my inability to overlook/comprehend or to contribute, question my ability and push me to the seemingly 'appropriate' way to the shrouded space of love - a divine period of time. It's been a long time

When the poise gets wings

My Father died or did I just open my eyes
From a calm top to a deadly sea
I wonder how I floated amidst lonely spree
I felt Him, I feel I did, yes, deep inside me
In essence if only, the dream was sweeter than the real cream
The forms called Truth sprints with me
As it plays with me, living through me
Questioning you, and you, and you and me

Lemme think...

My sister talked about 'Burying in one's own tomb of thoughts/worldview'....interesting....

Mr. Mooda talked about ....." Spirit & Spirituality" ....where spirit is 'wine' :)....interesting again....shall explore some other day


For now, O you people.......O you

Colour of your eye

Lonely I am again as I fail to look at myself
Wandering in thoughts of you and me
I fall again in the hide & seek of self & help

I want you is not what I feel I need
I need you is what I feel I don't want

My love I ask you again the same song
Can't we walk together, while walking alone

Oh my ....Oh my....

In the auro community....

G**

Is it important to know what is God
Is it allowed to feel who is Our Lord
Duality or Oneness, does it even matter?
When the Truth is for self, not to order or follow

The questions & words shall prevail till I breathe
Not in the known but in the selves the answer remains
Of all useless and waste questions, one hangs all the time
Who is God and what is It, O Dear, let's stop being genius
Let's explore, let's evolve. Let us play the game for all
With self, with fire; with the Love in its all forms

Saints and seers shined not to kill the One
Who resides in us, Who manages our flow
From dirt to divinity, Who takes us to home
Of unknown Reality but felt divinity

O dear Being....

Dear Roopali

May time touches your timeless thoughts, again and again


I HATE YOU

How dare you treat me like this
Pulling the baby in me on my lip
No matter how I try to be a man
I am pushed down on the mercy of your tip
Of love, of thought; of the care you shower
On the dry zones of my lonely self

O dear lady! Can I even tell you
What I earn from your lovely presence?
O sweet strength! You are not good
But an excellent sign of existence
Mother I've known, but now I've known you
Mould me for yourself, I beg, the way you want to

Blessed are those I believe who have known you
The path of Truth passes nothing but your own room
Oh Lovely! Wishes sweetest flow out from me
To the deserving that is you that is you
Allow me to kiss your hands so soft
And honour this world between you and me

Dear friend

Prasun. I am extremely happy for you. Muah!!! May you be what you should be


Shall we walk

Million streams pierced me in the closest embrace
Cladding me in the colors of pleasure & doubts
I asked myself, I questioned other selves
I ran still felt dry under the dark rain
Losing trust on time & Truth
I simply walked a lonely lane

The lightening challenged the dawn
When I was struck by the smile
And words of wisdom of her own
Pushing me to think and prepare
For the fight without bleeding zones


I can see the light in me
Of love, of faith; of my harmless hidden wings
And smudging the wasted wishes with strokes of tides
Washing the pain and serving life's delight
I've decided to walk but not alone

I am a believer but now I can see
The Light in the light of you and me
Oh my Love! Oh my self! it's just you in me
You've taken me too far into the sea
Where I may drown but with a complete Me

Only I wish to think to believe
In the wonders of Love in any loving spree

A walk on the Path

Thank you a lot is what I hear
Floating in heart, vibrating on lip
When I look at myself with no mirror
I know I've spread from a bud to tulip
In my thoughts, in my words
In my eyes and reaction to the worlds
Which I dwell in alone or with others
In an attempt to look at all as a whole

Not just one but many hold the share
Of the gifts I've or the smile I wear
Some are small while some have large
The part of me or the world of my own
Some are in minds, some just came in
And those who are like the fragments of my soul
Manifest the thanks into some wordly un-chore

I wonder if it's the walk on the Path
Which we all dream now or some day
To live for a reason, to walk without treason
Dissolving the color of Love on Self
A thanks grants me the legs; for the life's bigger Thanks

I love you all: the special souls in my life. I want to love you all and I pray I produce it so well.

A waste struggle?

Are we blind to the blood;as it drips from all
Coloring the shout that the struggle is on
In thought, in touch; in an effort to posses

There may be love but there's a fight for sure
We love the change which is the killer of the past
As we move to grow over, what we are now
In thought,in touch; in an endless stride to fight

Covered we our, in our own lies as innocence we choose
To live, to survive; to sing the songs of one's own choice
This world may not be then a gifted paradise
Where we live to enjoy, but then die living
In thought, in touch; in the reality of our own

The love prevails and so thus the war in all
And at times we fail to gift, the real meaning to life

A thought stop

Meaningless breaths knock my heart for a reason
To be the carrier of the life force
In and out of the dying frame
What is the use if I do not walk
On the garden of mysterious change
For some it's love, for some it's blood
Does it matter as it all seems red?

In the mere moment of my own
I try to see the world of all I've known
Have they lived the life they want?
Did they cry when someone's gone?
Is the mere journey; the sum of all
That is earned & burnt in this final pry?

My answer is here;and I wonder if it's free
In birds and in trees; in the people and in me
The sublime sound which we all tend to have
Which fades away but returns when we are prepared

I still wonder if I've my ears
Which I've lost in some games of you and me