The whispered declaration

Those words ring here, the three shower thy mercy
Drowning me in smiles, lifting me up in skies
Memories came alive, of us in vivid dreams
Heart says you're a liar, but what then is the truthful scream?

Wondering the moment, is it sun or the rain
The shine throughout the day, or a drizzle of pain
The moment brings joys, the hours hits me hard
Is this real, is it right, brings the thoughts & a thought

My throat is choked, but I speak to loads
For you, for me. for us, for the sake of dreams
Dreams unreal, dreams momentary are questioned now
I love this moment, but I hate this all.

An IM to her

Are you dead, or breath still holds you
Are you sick, or the 'smiles' still moulds you
Cherishing the words you 'mercied upon me
I think of you , it's not very long ago

Life unfolds itself, the games are different
Different for you and me and me and you
We must play it, in the way of our own
Difference shall remain in the space of playing zone

Still your time feel good, your thoughts dig deep
Out of the real, this heart cries for your more


Funny is the world, funny is the bond
Of a man and a woman, whom the love forgets

It exists no more, stil remains the sole truth


This was an instant message sent through yahoo messenger after a long time to an old friend with whom I had spend some good fruitful and lovely time. The following is the explanation.

1-2 [This just asks you whether you are happy with your life now, or still the same good sad gloomy days :) ]
3-4 [Pretty clear I guess, I liked what you had ADVISED me, and I always remember the talks I had with you]
5-6 [[This is just a comment on the uncertainty of life, the truth that we actually controls nothing. The second line 'you & me' and 'me and you' stresses the difference in which we see the life as and the life in general]
7-8 [This says that anyhow we have to LIVE, and though we have our own problems, joyous moments, we both have a common thing, that is LIVING]
9-10 [ This shows how I sometime miss you, your words and the next line reflects how bad I feel for the mismatch in our lives. I wish I could be with you in your time space ( or vice versa). I wish I could know you better, give you more.But that's unreal :)]
11-12 [This shows my disappointment over the kind of relationship man & woman have now. The love, my love is devoid of human body, it's in spirits, as individuals, not just sentimental and I am scared I may not find such a life partner]
13 [I feel that particular relationship is best, but it's again too uthopic in view looking at the changing cultural ( lifestyle) trends]

Human attraction to human body, sparkling of human desires devoid of human spirit...ah ! I am too weak.

The Bathroom Cake

Shining skin kissed me all day
The embracing lips killed me in all ways

Your smile whetted my eyes, your eyes sucked all fame
No pride no anger no danger only fear of time
The time which is new like the new you & new me
Is the new for the better or just for the change
I hate changes though I accept them.Ah!
With tears and scars, I smile and I smile

Still not ready to die
Still not ready to run
Life is serious, but what about the fun?
Let me live, let me wait
For those who came, and those who are late
My minds stops me, the hope pulls me

This fight is tight, not now, not then
But this way, it becomes a forever delight

LOVE

Feelings are feelings... temporary, permanent, real, unreal ( source) ...... how to fight them ..they are so delicate :)....

I miss you when I sleep, miss you when awake
I think you when I walk, I feel you when I play
I call you when in need, I hurt you when in pain
The voice waits for ears, the eyes wait for eyes
As my 'thoughts' torture . your smile nutures
I grow. My heart grows. The love grows.
Not you not me but the whole divine
Sings it says it dances it, but I am deaf & blind.
Don't be scared. Don't be you.
Let Him play & play with Him.