Silhouettes

Movement stops me. The memories dies.
The smell is gone, the taste's no more
Continuity of life. It is now unknown
Package is interesting but its not my own

They were the souls. My souls which I wore.
They died? Souls died? Or the soul is the biggest foul

Difficult it is to believe what I believe

People don't smell the same flower
People don't drink the same water
Life is learning I had been knowing
But I feel as if I have stopped growing
Have I changed or the time turned the role
From king to beggar I move. I move alone

May be the king is among beggars who knows.
I feel then life goes on in a way you'll never know.



What a Sem....I lost 3!!!!! I am not happy with you...game's going too hard on me.

Falling Drops

Drops you fall so light
Like a dream . A dream so bright
The course you take you know
Lucky you.I have to bow.Bow?
In the world of chains,thy shall not move
If one does,its no more bigger than a groove
I wish to be small. Small as you are
No praise. No noise. No chains
Am waiting for them. The clouds
The one pouring me down of the this game
And I will be free
And I will be falling
To not to wake up ever again

The Links!

Either I am crazy... ,does the world gone wild?
The words aren't enough,have they closed their eyes?
Sounds was enough,now the looks count
The venus rocks,alas its not in my walls
Emotions flow.Flow in vain into oceans.
Oceans of pricking pain & scream
Do the currents change their course
Do the sun changes motion
The question remains where it is
Am I a current ,am I the sun?
In the yes hides the how
Brain unable to solve the knots.
The knots.The knots of love & faith.
Have I changed,am I at zero.
Need not the thought
Need not the voice
Time is the key,the unfolding tee
Lets wait and wait,the game shall start soon.

The Rise

The doors are wide. The tide is here now.
The game was a life . Haa....life 's a game now.

Time played. Played very well.
People cried. Rain dried. Its my independence.

Freedom to work. Freedom to fight.
Beyond the life, I shall move.
Time for me to kill time.
Vengeance I desire.Its not you.
True not from you but from self.

With hope crying out loud
I shall rise. Rise like a sun.
Burning the prints.Prints?
The one that never existed.

Open thy eyes. Hear me.
Kiss me. Love me. Just.
Let me do what I do
Let me live in THE CITY-El Dorado.

The Incomplete Return

Why this happens I don't make it
If it isn't true why thy not fake it.

The one close appears further
The thoughts not pure,not true

I can see drops.Drops of water in fire
The hint of love.Love for me in her
I want her.I don't want her.
I don't need her .Not at all.
I need it. Not hi but a call?

Impossible is the thing,cruel is the time
Still.Still I wish to think her

The weather is fine, for me its killing
The sky is same,why then it isn't falling

I am a prince,you told me
Then why I crave for breathing.


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P.S. The 4-5 is Nishi!
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Alone I move

I speak.I smile. I shout
Why you cry.Why you feel dry
I blame .Yes I blame him.
Haunt me now & then.The venus.
Why can't I move right
Why can't I speak tight

Am I a dragon.Am I an empty gun
No one around me.No one beside me.
No one with me.Everyone ahead of me.
Mocking.Playing.Blaming. Ah!!!.......

Aren't am a human.Aren't am alive
Don't I have a heart.Can't I smile for a while.
I know nothing to it.I take everything of it.
World's not for me I agree
People not for me I agree
But don't make me fake
Make me to my degree.

I know.I know the choice I have.
To choose the world or christ
But I am innocent now.dumb now
I can smell yet there's no flower
I can touch yet there's no skin
I can play yet no game
Can I live a life so lame?

The pocket I have is empty
The heart I have is bleedy
The ears I have are tired
My way.My way seems to be wired
I ask you my Lord.Is this the game.
The game you play now & then.
If yes then say you don't lie
Coz I can never know why

I am blind.But I can see.
Open the world so I can be in.

Nature-caper

Play of time is known to me,yet am ignorant
Assumption is the rock.The rock that stops the flow

I find tears in the pool of smile
I see death evolved from the first breath
I see I am deaf.I cry I am set.
I shout I am high .I move but.But I lie


Mirage is what I must say.Should I ?
Solving the maze is the passion now
And fun is the nature's gestures
Just have stopped.To wait & watch
Watch the life like flow of time.

The way

i KNOW...the truth lies here...in me...
The importance can't be neglected as it the seen path as for now...
Keep thinking...about
people....places.....things...relationships.....existence...I know you will get an answer
Keep thinking!!!!

I love you Mom

Don't know.Read a mail.Got emotional. Hence I am writing here...
I love my mother,the only person who loves me.It may sound crude...but in the toughest definition she would be suited.
I don't know how ....why.Just she is someone I will always miss once she is not in my life.
Sometimes a cold shiver runs through my body thinking that she will not be here in a few years...
Oh....this is reality.
What can I do?.... I can make her smile....I can be what she wants of me.....I can be her SON.
I love you mother....

Ladle is your weapon when I fight in cradle
Love is the dose when am among thorns
The feeling.The feeling always remains
What will transedental do here?
The link is unknown but the touch is inherited
You have loved me, how will I do to you?
Can I?Can I be what is I am supposed to be
Mom.My Darling!.I will.A promise .
Will not let you go like the way you have been.
:*:*:*:*:*:* and yeah one thing I know
My end is in cove and my life is your love.

And again

Great the plans were in light
Amazing was the zeal for change
Moved I from the start first
Landed into the clone of pit
In the living mass was I stuck
Witnessed the death of rhythem
Away from the desired I am
Now.Now once again dead again

ReD SaturDay!!

Carefree?......
Focus?..........

yes....remember the words of AVP!!!!

Move .....just move.

Yea one more thing...I got really scared today travelling in the local trains alone..

Ambitious

Now reading about Sabeer Bhatia has made me to think about " Ambition" .Am I ambitious.
What exactly one mean by being ambitious.It means to achieve great places in life.Not just in economic terms but in terms of popularity.
Again I think I am not ambitious and hence I am not moving a

a new thing!!!

what is this all:)



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My Slide Show Click here to watch the slideshow.

Slide Show Filmstrip Previews

Ah.....mime

Sometimes miming can be real too.

Its so difficulty to copy Arun Govil:P

WOw......it feels so nice to act...this is my pic acting in a "street play"
in IIMA.
WE had won 1st prize for that~~~:) 

Valentine's Day

14th Feb
A day to express one's feelings, to allow the emotions flow like a river meeting into the ocean of love and faith.Mine is interesting too.
Being caught in the dogma of multiple theories,i cant decide for myself what I want.In fact the whole concept of "desire" is not stable.
I like a girl but not fully..only some major parts .But still why I am made to think of her.Just becauise i have no one else to fill the position i think she may have in case no one is there.
Again, its so nice to see,to know such a nice person.I dont know what they think of me but atleast know that i feel very honest with her and I am what I am with her.
I wish He allows me to meet such people all my life.

NOW I THINK I NEED YOU LORD.

Waiting!!!

Waitin can be so fun & so disastrous. Taking an incidence of my own life.
Nature's conspires in different wonderful (sometimes terrible :) ) ways.
I was waiting for a "friend" from Pune. Now the interesting thing is-
i was imaging the possibilities of what is goin to happen after she will come.
What am i gonna wear...i wud be wearing...what kind of attitude i shud have... where
shud we go for together.....in whole i cud make her day!!!!
And then suddenly Nature comes into play...SHE DIDNT COME on day 1.
Not in my wildest dream i had seen that.Now on day 2 waiting for her "call" ready with my jet pack ..still with fear that ....what if she dont come.........

A simple thing

Its so wonderful to be appreciated and so complicated to comprehend the negative comments about the thing which you hvae done conciously.
People go by "statistics",yea true, but is there any harm in thinkin oneself to be someone who would not fit in the graph. Probably this may seem foolish but isnt this which makes one's identity.
And again, even the person would start believing in them.What is then required to preserve his identity? Yes a very explicit answer to this is that- "Prove them by your actions".

This would not only shut their mouths but also will be a proof , a self-satisfyin answer to the identity.

Now as far as I am concerned, the most clear task is the

ACADEMIx
What is needed?
1.) Regular Attendence
2.) Assingments
3.)Weekly review
4.)Taking Exam very seriously
5)Since the performance till now has not been good means that you need to work hard
this time.
6)Dont feel lazy. "Karma is everything".Everything originates from Karma and nothing is
predecided.Feel the power of the free will. You can wash what you have done and what you
dont consider good.Just be brave, do what you feel is right, listen to right people,do right
actions and remember-you can always find a way out!!!


Sports/Physical fitness

Its the most important thing which one can have.Take proper precaution and act . DOnt worry you will not die;)
You have a lot of energies what is needed is the proper channelization.
As far as the games are concerned, focus mainly on
1.)Tennis
2.)Squash
3.)Badiminton

Dramatics
Try to learn new techniques in Dramatics. And be involved in the kind of Drama you like in to be.

English/ Languages
If you want to know more, English is the key to enter different domain. Therefore command on English is an absolute necessity.
I know I want myself to learn new languages, so learn them.
Focus on English.

G.K./History/Mythology

I know you gotta deep interest in all these things so make a routine and keep yourself updating

Guitar/Other Activities

DOnt let the things die.Things die when they are not in motion.



MOST IMPORTANT THING
-------------------- CULTIVATE HABITS but REMEMBER ITS NOT VERY TOUGH
JUST KEEP DOING RIGHT THINGS REGYULARILY AND IT WILL BECOME A HABIT.
Again it may seem that you are bored from a job ...dont worry keep working soon you will
relish.And also its a just a matter of one year:)

YOu will not fall sick again:)!!!!! I promise you